My First Major Scary Mom Moment

      I love being a mom to these little guys, and I love seeing how the kids have improved since they've gotten here, whether it's improvements in health or weight or just their happiness, it's so encouraging to me! They're all so adorable and I’ve been enjoying getting to know who each of them is as an individual :) But it's a hard place to work at too- take this story from last night for example.
       I was giving Esperanza a bath after she got back from her doctor appointment before putting her in bed. Earlier that day I had made a bath and I guess it was too warm, so this time I started a little cooler (certainly not cold, but lukewarm I guess), and she didn't like that at all! So I took her out and was holding her while putting in warmer water, and I glance down and her face was turning blue- she had stopped breathing! Oh my gosh, I've never been so scared in my life! I started patting her back and talking to her, trying to get her to come out of it. I wrapped her up in a towel and started carrying her towards the Hoffman’s, still patting and talking, and finally she came out of it. I almost started crying, I was so scared! I seriously thought she might die. She had done this once before once about a week earlier with Kristen, but it happened so unexpectedly!  I got her to the house and just told them what happened, and she still seemed a little off but got normal after a few minutes. So I took her back and gave her a bath again and she was just fine. I was a little nervous that night but she didn’t have any more problems. She seriously woke up at least every two hours to eat, but I was ok with that because it meant she was waking up! Wow, so scary. But God is good. I'm very comforted by the fact that our lives are in God's hands!!  And we were so excited to find out today that she is in fact stable enough to undergo surgery!! We have an appointment for her on the 28th :)  Her poor little heart needs it sooo bad!! So Praise the Lord!!  
       Thanks all who have been praying! Please continue to pray for me, that I would be a good “substitute mom” for these kids and pray for the kids as well, that they would continue to get better/stay healthy and just receive the love they so need. And especially for sweet little Esperanza, that she would stay well till and through surgery, and that she would come out of it better than ever before, ready to grow and finally be healthy! I praise God that he has kept her safe thus far and look forward to seeing his continued faithfulness through all this!